I reached a point recently where I was convinced that I wasn't being heard. In my own words, "God seems pretty pissed off at me." Ya, I know, that's not how it works. In the midst of my one-track prayers, and my selfish thoughts, it wasn't that He had stopped listening. He was gently saying "No Kait... That's not the plan."
As I sat at Dunkin Donuts
When putting it into perspective, as hard as I think my life has been lately, it hasn't been. Because there are kids in Africa being stolen out of their beds and forced to murder. There are cities and countries going though earthquakes, tornadoes and tsunamis. And losing everything. Everything. There are people in all corners of the world waking up and wondering how they are going to eat today. Praise God, I have more than enough to eat, and wake up every morning safe, under a roof. Heck, I even have the delicacy of Keurig coffee at this current temp job. So no, life's not that hard.
I'm here for a reason. There's a job here for me (somewhere), there's undoubtably an amazing man here for me, and there's a life here for me. It's going to take some kicking and screaming to get where I dream of being, and it sure as hell won't go as planned. But that's because it isn't my plan.
I'll live and learn. Thankfully I have an awesome, supportive family, and friends who I know will always have my back. I'll take the curve balls as they come, and know that eventually, I'm going to get one right down the middle. And that one's going out of the park.
Here we go.