Not just from hardly sleeping the past two nights due to a hacking cough that has sent both Andrew and the dog running to sleep on the couch (sorry guys) - but I'm so emotionally tired as well.
I'm tired of logging onto almost any form of social media and seeing hate being spewed everywhere. I'm tired of being bombarded with news stories and suggestions that we are all screwed, or one end of the 'spectrum' attacking the other. I'm tired of people choosing to consistently post negativity, instead of positivity.
I'm tired of being sick. From a minor surgery earlier this month that majorly slowed me down, followed shortly by a cold that has now turned into a sinus, ear and eye infection, January has felt like a train plowed me over. Health-wise, I'm not sure I've felt more defeated.
Lastly, I'm tired of being worried what other people think when they read my blog, see pictures I post, etc. I shouldn't care, but I do. I see all the mean comments out there on the world wide web, and I can't help but wonder.
So, here we are - February - my birthday month, the shortest month of the year. And I'm wondering, maybe I can just start 2017 today? Because January sure didn't feel like a New Year. It felt like being dragged through the mud behind a tractor.
A post caught my eye this morning, and it triggered a series of thoughts. The blogger was explaining a Clean Slate Challenge she was participating in, and while most of her ideas are centered around health & fitness, it got me to thinking...
Clean Slate February has a nice ring to it.
So like Taylor Swift's song 'Clean' - that's my February theme. My focus will be on all things positive - getting my health back into check, continuing to pursue passions and self-development, educating myself daily, healthy morning habits, pouring into healthy relationships - all the while eliminating things that are dirtying my slate.
This includes a whole lot of negative thoughts, angry internal rants, poor self-talk, too much time on my phone, getting sucked into hyperbolized news articles, and worrying what others think about what I think. It's literally sucking the life out of me, and I'm over it.
So that's it. This post may be complete crap because I don't write well when I'm tired - but man am I tired, and I just need to get this off my chest. I would love if you chose to join me going into this short 28 day month - clean your slate, however you may need to. I'll leave you with this, that was emailed to me earlier this week and is now my phone lock screen. Whether you're a Bible reader or not, I think it's something we all need to strive towards.